RIP Stephanie!!

This is a day late, but a year ago yesterday, Stephanie Marie Gotz ( A Jonas Brothers Street Team Leader) passed away.  My friend told me last year on the day she died.  

"I took a Chance, I took a shot, and you might think I'm Bulletproof, 

but I'm not. You took a swing I took it hard" ~ Taylor Swift, Tell Me Why

So neway, It hit me so hard, and I was so confused!!! From what I read, she was so sweet in so many ways, she'd be proud of the boys, and how far they've  come from 2006.  She was there when they began, as lowly boys from Wyckoff, and she was there when they were picked up by Disney, and she was there when they first started to reach fame, but she's not here when they are at the top of the charts, touring internationally, Premiering their 3D movie, and as they say "Living The Dream"  God Took u to soon Steph... We miss you. 

Dear God, why did you take Stephanie Away?  She was only 21 God, only 21! She had everything going for her, she had the Jonas Brothers, she had family, she had so many friends. She's gone NOW! GONE!!  Why?? Why?? 

Jonas Brothers Eternity

Looking at a picture of you in my hands 
Wondering if I'm ever gonna see you again 

Without you I don't know how my life will be 
But I believe 
It's not goodbye 
Cause I will remember you 
And I will see you again 
When I rise 
Cause I know and I believe 
I will see you in eternity 

So close yet so far 
But in my heart you're here with me 
You did not leave 
You just went to live in eternity 

Without you I don't know how my life will be 
But I believe 
It's not goodbye 
Cause I will remember you 
And I will see you again 
When I rise 
Cause I know and I believe 
I will see you in eternity 

We will live in the light of the sun again 
Dancing in the river of life and 
Knowing that'll never end 
Forever by your side 
We'll never have to say goodbye 

Cause I will remember you 
And I will see you again 
When I rise 
Cause I know and I believe 
I will see you in eternity 

It's not goodbye 
Cause I will remember you 
And I will see you again 
When I rise 
Cause I know and I believe 
I will see you in eternity

Yeah, The Jonas Brothers Wrote that about their Grandma, but I wanna dedicate it to Stephanie Marie.  We miss you girl!  RIP, I know you're watching us from above. 

Here's Another song called Eternity,  It's Written By Robbie Williams ( A pop singer from the UK) 

Close your eyes so you don't fear them
They don't need to see you cry
I can't promise I will heal you
But if you want to I will try

I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Someone said the truth will out
I believe without a doubt, in you

You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity...
For eternity

Yesterday when you were walking
We talked about your mum and dad
What they did that made you happy
What they did that made you sad
We sat and watched the sun go down
Picked a star before we lost the moon
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone to soon

You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity...
For eternity

For eternity
I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone to soon

You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity

You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I know you'll find your freedom
Eventually
For eternity
For eternity

It's so Good! It realli reminds me of Stephanie.... 

The Lord took you to soon, but sometimes it's for the best, Although, I think God was wrong this time. 

I found another memory!

you kno how I used to have all these Jonas memories???  Well, I accidentally hit my head during my school's musical practice, and uh, I forgot some. The most recent one was from August 2008, (Not the meet and Greet Memory, but another one. I'll post it now.)

Moemory:

  I go back to Wyckoff NJ, Sometimes (their old home town) and I go to the Wildlife Center (where Joe used to run), Climb up to the observatory, and cry. I was caught once, by none other than Joe Himself. (EMBARASSING YES!!) He was all like "What's wrong?" I was all like, "Oh Nothing, It's just my favorite group is overlycommercialized." And he said "Who's that?" and I mumbled "Jonas Brothers." He got all like, understanding, picked up my chin (Yeah, I was FORCED to look into his brown eyes.) and he asked my name, and I said "Mandy." and he said "Well Mandy, I'm Joe Jonas." I GOT SO EMBARASSED. then he said "MAndy, don't worry, we won't get overlycommercialized," I looked at him and said "Joe, I dunno, I mean, I don't want you to get hurt or anything." he hugged me, and said don't worry, we won't be overlycommercialized." That was all I needed to hear. Then we just kinda sat and talked. It was just like old days, we'd spend hours just talking in the Wildlife Center, There's an observatory there, I don't rememember when it went up, but I do remember Joe and I made that like, OUR place, We spent the Summer of 2006 just there. We watched the sunset, and once we had a sleepover there, we had a big tent, that had like, a space for each of us, and we each had our own sleeping bag, but one inflatable mattress. We decided against using the mattress for obvious reasons. The Next day we woke up, and watched the Sunrise, and we just spent the day there together. It was a nice thing, and that's when I got my first kiss, right on that observatory deck, he leaned in, wrapped his arms around my waist, and kissed me on the lips, my foot popped, and I dunno, we had A LOT of Chemistry, That was then, but now he's a rock star. I just went to the Wildlife Center last week, it was warm out, and I was in a t-shirt sitting on the bench in the observatory, the same bench Joe and I sat on last August, and I heard his voice saying "Hey! Mandy! I'm glad your here!" and I turned around slowly, and he wasn't there. I guess I imagined it. I always Imagine things. I'm stuck in a fantasy world, of where I wanna b and where I am.

Bored!

Hey Everyone, Okay I'm bored out of My Mind! I wrote my own lyrics to the Jonas Brothers Song "Poison Ivy" Neone want to comment back with ur own version of the lyrics? Who knows, Maybe urs are there's!!  I'll post mine first 

Poison Ivy:

When I first met you I was hooked right away

I knew that I was gonna be the one to make all your dreams come true, I thought when there was me and you we'd be the best together  forever but

 

 I didn't see it in the beginning, but later on I found that there was pure poison ivy in your icy stare, poison ivy in your smile, in everything you did.  

I tried my best to avoid the rest, but in the end 

I lost my sense of everything and fell into your poison ivy. 

 

 Everything I did was in your best interest, and not my own.

Everything was for you and only you. 

Darling, I didn't wanna say goodbye, cuz I thought that you're poison ivy

would just go away on it's own.  I was so wrong to think like that, and now I'm under the thumb of your poisonous  venom. 

 

 I didn't see it in the beginning, but later on I found that 

there was pure poison ivy in your icy stare, poison ivy in your smile,

 in everything you did.  I tried my best to avoid the rest, but in the end 

I lost my sense of everything and fell into your poison ivy.

 

I thought I was so strong until you came along, and my world spun around. 

Soon I found that I was following you and everything I did was chosen by you in my head. After awhile I found myself  tangled in a love web spun by you, and your poison ivy. I knew I wasn't gonna get anywhere until I cut you out of my life, which I knew would strike me like a knife.

 

 I didn't see it in the beginning, but later on I found that 

there was pure poison ivy in your icy stare, poison ivy in your smile,

 in everything you did.  I tried my best to avoid the rest, but in the end I lost my sense of everything and fell into your poison ivy. 

 

I tried to put my thoughts of you aside, but when I did that, the more I cried. I tried to move ahead, but my heart bled, and I came running back to you instead.  I know I can’t  go anywhere without wishing you were there, and I felt another page in my life story begin to tear.  It’s unfair, but  I don’t really care.

 

I didn't see it in the beginning, but later on I found that 

there was pure poison ivy in your icy stare, poison ivy in your smile,

 in everything you did.  I tried my best to avoid the rest, but in the end I lost my sense of everything and fell into your poison ivy. 

 

It’s not my fault babe, I didn’t know you’d hurt me like you chose to do,

And so I had no choice but to let you go. Don’t come crying back to me and saying that you changed cuz I know better than that.  I know that it’s just a trap that you set so I’d fall back into your poison ivy, and wish we’d try again. I didn’t know it then, but I know now that you’re love was just a lie, and that you’re plan was to tie you’re poison ivy ‘round my wrists, and feet. So I was confined to your wicked poison ivy.

 

I didn't see it in the beginning, but later on I found that 

there was pure poison ivy in your icy stare, poison ivy in your smile,

 in everything you did.  I tried my best to avoid the rest, but in the end I lost my sense of everything and fell into your poison ivy. 

 

Listen to me when I say you and me aren’t free, we weren’t meant to be.

I let you go before, and I let you go again, but this time I’m not  gonna come back.  You lost me, and it’s your own fault.  I tried forever to make it work, I did my part, but you didn’t do yours.  You never did your part.

So it resulted in a broken heart for me.  You didn’t care, you didn’t try.

So I was living a lie.

 

I didn't see it in the beginning, but later on I found that 

there was pure poison ivy in your icy stare, poison ivy in your smile,

 in everything you did.  I tried my best to avoid the rest, but in the end I lost my sense of everything and fell into your poison ivy. 

 

How could you be so cold? You never did anything that you were told.

I thought I’d be happier on my own, and I am, but now and then I still miss you.  Cuz If I never see you again I know I’ll always miss you. Our relationship wasn’t  gonna work, even though I thought it could, but I was wrong, I was so wrong.  It took me to long to end it. I should’ve known it from the beginning, I wasn’t gonna be winning, not this time.

 

(Chorus last time)

I didn't see it in the beginning, but later on I found that 

there was pure poison ivy in your icy stare, poison ivy in your smile,

 in everything you did.  I tried my best to avoid the rest, but in the end I lost my sense of everything and fell into your poison ivy. 

 

(Spoken)

I was so wrong loving you, and I should’ve known. 

Hey!!

Hi Everyone! I'm SO SO SO, SO sorry bout not posting in awhile!!!  I've been so busy with my musical, and I still haven't come back from JB3D heaven!! It was such a good movie!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH I loved Joe when he went SHIRTLESS!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!! HE'S SO HOTT!!!  HOW HOTT IS THAT SHOT????